Violet Evergarden Episode 11: I Don’t Want To Die

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This week KyoAni dug the knife a little deeper into my bubbling guts of overwhelming emotions. Episode 11 of Violet Evergarden broke my heart into a million little pieces once again. I don’t think my heart can take another emotional beating. I don’t know if I am going to make it to the end of this show. Whew! This show has been on hell of a roller coaster.

Just like episode 10 I want to focus more on the tail end of the episode. Violet ends up taking (more like stealing) a job request from Claudia’s office that has her heading to Camp Menace in the snowy mountains of Ctrigall. It is the former enemy of Leidenschaftlich. So basically it is too dangerous for an Auto Memory Doll to be traveling to…but you know how our Violet-chan is! Of course she’s gonna go there. The request was sent in by a young man named Aidan. Aidan is a solider fighting for the moderate fraction.

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While on a mission, Aidan and his squad are ambushed by warmongers. You can pretty much say they are taken out by the other sides sniper. While trying to escape with his comrade, Yale (who doesn’t make it in the end), Aidan is gravely wounded. This scene was so hard to watch. I hated seeing these guys getting shot to death. I guess everyone says this scene in the light novel is far more gruesome. 😦

This is when Violet descends from the sky and saves Aidan! I have to say seeing Violet-chan back in action was AMAZING! It is crazy to see how quick Violet is on the battlefield.

Violet drags Aidan to what seems to be an abandoned cabin in order to help him with his wounds. Instead of treating him, Aidan wants to write a letter to his family. Boy, you gonna die if you don’t let Violet-chan treat you! Aidan believed he was mortally wounded. I think in all retrospect Aidan knew he wasn’t going to make it…so it was only fitting for him to write a farewell letter to his family. Violet takes off her gloves and pretends to type on her typewriter while Aidan speaks his last words. Violet didn’t need her typewriter in-front of her in order to memorize Aidan’s words. She could remember all of them without hesitation.

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Aidan’s letter to his father and mother reads:

“Dad. Mom.
Thank you for raising me. This might be my last letter. If you’re ever reincarnated…and marry each other again, I would want to be your son again. Please. It wasn’t supposed to end like this. I was supposed to find happiness, and show you I was happy. That was the plan. So…So, I’m praying…that you would have me as your son again. Please.” 

Then Violet asks Aidan if there is anyone else he would like to send a letter to. He says Maria. Maria was Aidan’s childhood friend who finally confessed her feelings for him before he left. They never even got to kiss!!! Waaahhhhh….I’m so sad.

The letter to Maria reads:

How are you doing? Do you remember…the time you confessed your feelings for me? I was really, really, really happy. Maria. Maria. I want to go home to be by your side. I don’t want to die. I want to go home, to be beside you. Wait for me.” 

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With the letters complete, Violet comforts Aidan in his final moments as he pictures himself reuniting with Maria.

Violet even gives Aidan one last real life kiss before he dies…

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I CAN’T EVEN WITH THIS EPISODE! I haven’t even recovered from the last one. In the end Violet delivers Aidan’s letters to his mother, father, and Maria. I thought I was going to make it but then the waterworks happened. As soon as I saw Aidan’s parents crying it was all over for me. I bawled like a baby.

As Violet makes her way to leave Aidan’s mother says, “Thank you.” She then goes to hug Violet. She thanks Violet once again.

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Even Maria, through her tears, thanks Violet as well.

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This is when Violet starts to cry. She apologizes and says, “I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to protect him.” She then goes on to say, “I’m sorry…that I let him die. I’m sorry.” 

If Violet didn’t steal the job from Claudia’s office Aidan’s final words would have never reached his loved ones. Even though it was dangerous I believe Violet did the right thing. I knew Violet would be okay in the long run. I mean…the girl was used as a weapon once before.

I am so so happy that Aidan got to save goodbye to his mother, father, and Maria. It was a gift of closure. I can’t fathom what it would be like to lose someone you love and never get to say goodbye to them. This episode was Aidan’s goodbye. I wonder what journey episode 12 will take us on? I hope it’s not another tearjerker! I need a break from crying uncontrollably XD

Disclaimer: All imagery and photos come from searching for them on the internet. I have no claim or right to them.

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