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Opening scenes:

We are thrown into the aftermath of Major Gilbert being shot. He is then shot a second time in his right side by the enemy. This is when Violet goes into beast mode, she shoots twice, cocks the rifle, and shoots one of the enemy soldiers down. She proceeds to try and shoot the other soldier but is out of ammo. This guy is literally petrified of Violet and runs off out of fear. I mean…just look at Violet’s face. I would probably piss my pants if I was this dude.

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The Major proceeds to tell Violet to save herself and leave him there. But of course our girl is having none of that! She proceeds to tell him, “I will not leave you behind! I will stay here and fight! I will only go if I take you with me.” As our heroic Violet-chan picks up Gilbert and tries to walk off with him an enemy soldier shoots Violet in her right arm. And there goes arm number one! Holy crap balls. Those are some powerful freaking guns! Gilbert whips out his pistol and shoots the enemy in the neck. BOOM SUCKA! That’s what you get for hurting my Violet-chan! Violet bears the pain and weight of Gilbert’s body and continues to walk him somewhere safe. *Enter runaway soldier from before* This time he has some type of stick bomb. Oh hell no! He’s gonna throw it at Gilbert and Violet! NOOOO!!!

Yup, he throws it at our main characters and this is when Violet loses her second arm. We have now come full circle to the beginning of this story.

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You guys already know what happens at the end of episode one so I don’t feel like I need to rehash these scenes for you, but what we didn’t get to see is Violet’s reaction to Gilbert’s confession of “I love you.” This time we do.

The bombing of Intense happens and we see Major Gilbert lunge for Violet in order to protect her. End scene.

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Cut to Violet digging through the rubble of Intense. She is seeking answers, but where will she find them? I doubt she will find them in the aftermath that is Intense. Claudia manages to find Violet and tells her why the bombing took place. It seems the Gardarik Army knew they were defeated and decided to bombard their own headquarters before retreating. WHAT COWARDS! But I’m sure anyone would do this if they knew they weren’t going to win. Seems like an unforgiving army strategy. Violet was found at the bottom of the stairs and we hear (once more) that Gilbert most likely pushed Violet out of the way in order to protect her from the blast.

Violet (in a way) calls out Claudia and everyone else for saying that the Major was fine while she was in the hospital. Claudia responds with, “We couldn’t tell you. You were more concerned about him than you were about yourself.” Well no freaking duh Claudia! Violet-chan has been with the Major for a long time! Major Gilbert is the only person to show Violet any sense of compassion. It is only fitting that Violet be concerned about the Major.

Claudia then says, “Let’s go.” You can tell that Claudia wants to take Violet-chan back to the office and make her feel better but Violet responds with, “Where…would I go? I can only go where the Major is.” Claudia gives the only answer he can, “We’re going back to the office. You’re our Auto Memory Doll.” In reality Claudia knows this answer isn’t good enough. We see him unclench his fist and try to muster up a better answer for Violet.

WHY MAJOR GILBERT, WHHHYYY? Why do you have to do this to me??? You knew something was going to happen didn’t you? You knew you were going to die in this battle but didn’t have the heart or the guts to say anything. You just wanted Violet-chan taken care of after your death. Gilbert, you are too pure for this world. We don’t deserve you.

And then even more disheartening words from Claudia about Gilbert! I don’t know how much more I can take guys and we are only 6 minutes into this episode.

Luckily Benedict comes to the rescue! He pulls up with a car in order to take Claudia and Violet-chan home. Benedict you the real MVP of this show! I love you so much.

In the car Benedict wants to know if Violet-chan is okay. Violet just stares out the window in an emotional daze. Claudia goes on to ask her, “You’re okay, right?” Silence from Violet. Claudia goes on to say, “I wasn’t sure what would happen when you were first discharged from the hospital, but you’ve learned how to be an Auto Memory Doll. You’ve come so far.” Yes, yes she has. Violet has grown an existential amount since the beginning of this series. Then Claudia gives Violet-chan the best sense of advice (or words of wisdom) in order for her to be able to move forward.

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Violet should be able to live her life without Gilbert’s orders…but this problem mainly revolves around the idea of will Violet live her life without Gilbert’s orders? Violet is the only one who can solve her own problems, not anyone else. It will be up to Violet-chan to decide if she wants to move forward or live in the past.

Benedict has to stop the car due to the road being blocked by fellow soldiers. It seems the city of Claisseclaire was attacked by an anti-peace faction from Gardarik. We have seen sprinkles of this information throughout the series. I am sure this is going to play a bigger role coming up in the rest of the episodes.

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Concerned friends:

There they are! Erica and Iris have finally made an appearance again my friends. It seems Erica and Iris are concerned about Violet-chan. They know she is back at the office but she hasn’t come to work. How sweet! The girls want to make sure she is okay.

We then see that Cattleya is also concerned for Violet-chan’s well-being. She asks Benedict to go check on her. Also Benedict is wearing those shoes AGAIN!!! I wanna know why he is wearing them!!! They better explain it sometime soon or I am going to have a hissy fit.

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The old delivery man (who helped Benedict eat his noodles that one time) enters the scene to ask Benedict to help him look for letters. It seems one of the new deliverymen threw away letters he couldn’t get around to delivering. WHO THE HELL DOES THAT? That sounds like a lazy P.O.S to me! The old man and Benedict take off to go search for the letters.

So in the end Cattleya has to go check on Violet. Violet-chan is holed up in her room, not coming out for anyone. Just like me when I was a teen! We have so much in common Violet-chan. Cattleya offers Violet some food but Violet doesn’t respond. Cattleya sets the food outside the door and this is when Violet speaks about Claudia’s mentioning of her being on fire. You know…the quote from earlier episodes.

*Insert another earful from Cattleya*

Claudia comes in with the quick comeback!

Cattleya wants to know what Violet-chan should do. Claudia says, “She’ll have to decide on her own. After she looks at her burning body and accepts it.” More concerned words from Cattleya about Violet-chan losing the Major and everything else. Claudia responds with, “It’ll be okay. She hasn’t lost him or anything else.” Possible foreshadowing the Major is alive? The last five episodes can go in any direction at this point. Either he will be dead for good or he will be miraculously alive.

Erica and Iris reflect on their relationship with Violet-chan thus far. I think it’s great Erica and Iris are trying to be more involved with having a solid friendship with Violet! These type of connections are going to be important for Violet if the Major is really dead. Having a strong support system is key when someone must grow from losing someone they care about dearly.

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While Erica and Iris talk amongst themselves Luculia’s brother, Spencer, comes into the work office and says, “I would like to hire a scribe.” Yay! More characters from past episodes. I love seeing old characters come into play.

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Dream vs Reality:

When this scene came up I knew it was going to be a dream sequence. We see Violet back at Intense where the Major said his final words to her. She starts to cry and calls out for Major Gilbert. This is when he pops up and asks her, “What’s the matter?” Violet tells the Major through her tears that she is working as an Auto Memory Doll. The Major seems confused at this sentiment. Annnddd here comes the blood! Blood starts dripping down from the stairs and Major Gilbert’s face. We then hear the words of Captain Bougainvillea come out of Gilbert’s mouth. Those harsh and piercing words that will forever echo in Violet’s mind:

Violet awakens from her dream (more like nightmare) and calls out for the Major. Of course she is in her room all alone. Violet (upon realizing this) goes into a frenzy and knocks all of her items off the desk. She screams out and grabs the stuffed puppy Claudia gave her as if to destroy that as well.

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But she can’t bring herself to do it. She drops to her knees, places the puppy on the floor in-front of her, cries for a few seconds before trying to strangle herself. Oh no! Baby girl, what is you doing?! That is not the answer Violet-chan!!! DON’T DO IT!!!

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Violet is so distraught that she can’t even strangle herself to death. She weeps for Major Gilbert asking him what she should do.

I wish I could do something to help our Violet-chan! It makes me so sad to know she is suffering 😦

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Old man Jenkins (that’s what I’m gonna call him since he doesn’t have a name) knocks on Violet’s door sometime later. He says he has a letter for her. I wonder who that could be from? It’s from Erica and Iris! So that’s what those girls were up to. Violet asks Jenkins about his late night deliveries and it seems Benedict and him found the discarded letters from earlier. Violet then asks about Benedict’s whereabouts. It seems he sprained his ankle wearing those boots! Still no word about why he is wearing those boots in the first place though! We may have to chalk it up as the mystery of Violet Evergarden.

Violet goes along with old man Jenkins to finish the deliveries. There was quite a bit of letters missing! They both have stuffed satchels. If I ever get my hands on the person who discarded those letters I’m gonna….ah! I’m getting off topic now. Back to business!

Old man Jenkins has the cutest opinion about the undelivered letters! I can’t help but smile at his words. I’m glad Violet had enough spirit in her to go help with the deliveries.

Violet finishes her deliveries and old man Jenkins is thrilled they have all made it home safely. Violet then gathers up her courage and reads the letter from Erica and Iris.

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The letter reads:

“How are you doing, Violet? I thought about coming to see you, but after talking with Iris, we decided to write you a letter instead. It might be strange for a Doll to write another Doll, but we wanted you to know that we are worried about you. And that we are also…waiting for you. You might not feel like coming back to work right now, so take all the time you need. But if something happens, please don’t hesitate to call us. Both Iris and I have faith you will return. Also, someone named Spencer came asking to scribe a letter for him. He wanted to send a thank you and an apology letter to his younger sister. He specifically asked for you…and insisted on having you write the letter.” 

What a thoughtful and heartfelt letter from the ladies! Good job girls! ❤

Violet ends up writing Spencer’s letter for him and we find out the letter Erica and Iris sent was the first letter our Violet-chan has ever received. In turn Violet understands that the letter she received is important. It made her feel special.

There is not better feeling in the world than feeling special! It makes you feel like you are on top of the world!

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One step forward:

As Violet is heading back to the office we see bits and pieces of all the people Violet-chan has helped thus far. From Princess Charlotte, to Oscar and Leon, Violet is slowly coming to terms with a life without the Major. She stops in front of a flower shop to look at the potted violet’s. She recalls the time the Major and her first met and then when he gave her her name. Violet then takes that first step forward into moving on into a new life of her own.

Violet heads to Claudia’s office and asks him the most important question of all:

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And then Claudia even starts to tear up! Oh no no no! Please don’t cry Claudia. It will only make things worse for me. You guys already know I hate when guys cry…and if Claudia cries…then I’ll cry!

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I’ll leave you guys with Claudia’s beautiful words of encouragement to Violet-chan:

Disclaimer: All imagery and photos come from searching for them on the internet. I have no claim or right to them.

Before you get on my case…I had a very busy day yesterday. I had a tattoo appointment for Friday the 13th and it was also laundry day. Considering I don’t have a washer & dryer at home I usually end up going to my friends house in order to get my garments all clean. That’s what happens when you live in a college town! A lot of places around here don’t have washer/dryer hookups in the buildings so you have to do laundry at a laundry mat. We have a washer/dryer room in our complex but I ain’t about to pay $10 to do a load of laundry when I can do it for free elsewhere XD Eff that noise!

I’ve also been having a hard time sleeping the last couple of days so I took a much deserved nap. If I could sleep all day I probably would. Hibernation sounds like a good idea…don’t ya think? Whose’s with me on this one?

Things to do

So here I am bringing you guys part 2 of my Fall anime season first impressions! Better late than never…am I right? It’s only a day late…jeez you guys expect too much from me. I’m only one person you know! *Silently sobs in the corner* I am still waiting for the second season of 3-gatsu no Lion (March comes in like a Lion), but we still have a few hours to go. I usually like to focus on brand new new shows though (I feel like second and third seasons really don’t count when they come out). Sometimes second and third season shows take away from the potential popularity of new anime, so for me personally I count them in their own category.

Let’s get to the rest of these shows! 😀

1. Kujira no Kora wa Sajou ni Utau (Children of the Whales)

This is my top pick for Fall anime season. Kujira no Kora wa Sajou ni Utau (Children of the Whales) is undeniably STUNNING. A lot of people were complaining the first episode was too slow, but for me personally, I thought it was perfection. For an anime that borderlines on emotional and tugs at the heartstrings of the viewer I don’t expect it to be fast paced. I want it to draw me in little by little. I don’t need an action packed story shoved in my face 24/7. It is the same ideals and principles with Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu or Natsuyuki Rendezvous (two of my all time favorite anime). They take their time to really draw out the full potential of the anime. I’ve really come to appreciate slow-burner anime over the last year and I am glad I have given them more of an opportunity to make a lasting impression on me. I’m really looking forward to tomorrow’s episode! Apparently it supposed to make the viewer cry. Guess we will have to wait and see!

2. Houseki no Kuni (Land of the Lustrous)


My other favorite has finally made its appearance! Well really it appeared last week after I wrote part one, so it couldn’t be added until today lololz but I am so very glad it did! I actually read the first volume of Houseki no Kuni (Land of the Lustrous) and the first episode was translated almost perfectly! There were a few minor changes but they can be overlooked in order to really appreciate the premier episode. I can’t wait to see more of Cinnabar! Probably my favorite out of the whole group. I love the unique fantasy concept of this story and how they bring gems to life. The only thing it is really lacking is music. I wish we could get some good tunes to go along with this series. Maybe it will pick up in later episodes? I’ll keep my fingers crossed!

3. Inuyashiki


I have to hand it to MAPPA studios for giving us a protagonist who is an old man. Well, 58 to be exact (some people wouldn’t consider this very old). Inuyashiki was unbelievably fucking sad the first 10-12 mins of the show and then BOOM! We got a sci-fi alien twist in the middle. I love anything dealing with aliens right now, so this show is right up my alley. The CGI isn’t as smooth as Houseki no Kuni (Land of the Lustrous) but I am hoping it might pan out in the later episodes. I really wish shows would layer the CGI like they did with God Eater. That show was a bit easier on the eyes and transitioned quite well. I have high hopes for Inuyashiki! Let’s hope it can deliver!

4. Mahoutsukai no Yome (The Ancient Magus Bride)

I feel like I don’t really need to touch basis on this one (because it seems everyone else has already). You guys know I loved the three part OVA’s of Mahoutsukai no Yome (The Ancient Magus Bride). I am thoroughly impressed by the first episode! I can’t wait to see the rest of Elias and Chise’s journey together. I am sure we are in for a magical treat ❤

5. Kekkai Sensen & Beyond

Kekkai Sensen Gang

Another show I don’t need to reiterate on. I am so stoked to see Kekkai Sensen back for another season. This show is so kooky, off-the-wall, and I love every minute of it! Let’s all enjoy this crazy ride together! 🙂

6. Blend S

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Just like Konohana Kitan, I thought Blend S was totes adorable! Really impressed with all the cuteness overload. You really can’t go wrong with moe anime. I think Maika trying to be a sadist is freaking hilarious! It would be interesting to go to a cafe and experience all the different types of “-dere’s.” I think we are in for some good laughs with this anime.

7. Two Car

A lot of mixed reviews out there of Two Car. I quite liked the first episode. I think a lot of people were disappointed with the flashbacks, because it seemed a bit jumbled (almost like they were just thrown in there). Which I can totally see, but I am not one to complain about flashbacks. I thought the pacing was good and I liked the dynamic between Yuri and Megumi. Best friends tend to bicker like they did in the first episode. We all can’t be perfect ya know? I am willing to stick with it mainly because all the girls competing are so freaking pretty! I wanna be that pretty.

9. Evil or Live

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This anime is done by the same people who did Bloodivores (and we all know how that anime turned out). Evil or Live is another Chinese manga turned anime. I think it is great they are trying to produce more anime from Chinese source material but it never comes out quite right. The story is interesting to say the least and the genre is horror, but I feel like this anime will just turn shitty like Bloodivores did. I’ll give them points for trying! I’ll stick it out for a few more episodes and if it doesn’t keep my interest I’ll drop it.

10. Boku no Kanojo ga Majime Sugiru Shojo Bitch na Ken


Let me just say this…I wasn’t planning on watching Boku no Kanojo ga Majime Sugiru Shojo Bitch na Ken at all, but decided to see what the first episode would be like. I think I watched about 15 to 18 mins worth and then got bored. Boring story, boring characters, the same shit just a different day. Totally not worth my time!

That is finally it for Fall first impressions! Which shows are you most excited about? Have you dropped any shows so far? I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments section below! And as always thank you for joining me today! I always appreciate you guys stopping by to read my post.

Disclaimer: All imagery and photos come from searching for them on the internet. I have no claim or right to them.

*Que Britney Spears*

I know, I know. I keep screwing up my blog schedule! I usually post Tuesdays, Fridays and Saturdays but this week seems like a jumbled up mess. I can’t help it! I work late afternoons until about ten at night. Then all I want to do is lay in bed and watch anime. I’m a lazy p.o.s…merp. Things would be a lot easier if I could have someone write my blogs for me. You know…like a ghost writer type of situation. Man! Wouldn’t that be nice. To sit back, have a tropical drink in my hand and just laze about like the fat hippo that I am…but noooo! I have to do everything myself. Welcome to adulthood. #adulting

Today is another Senpai Saturday…well Sunday but you guys get the point. We are going to explore the term “fujoshi.” That beautiful otaku term related to many ladies in the anime community. Usually you will see this term used for girls who love anything with the concept of BL (Boys Love). It seems this two terms go hand in hand or you can’t really think of one without the other…that type of thing.

So lets get on with our bad selves!

Fujoshi definition:

Fujoshi (“rotten girl”) is a self-mockingly pejorative Japanese term for female fans of manga and novels that feature romantic relationships between men. Men who, like fujoshi, enjoy imagining relationships between characters in fictional works when that relationship is not part of the author’s intent may be called fudanshi (“rotten boy”) or fukei (“rotten older brother”), both of which are puns of similar construction to fujoshi.” 

Victor Yuri and Maccah-chan

While “otaku” has been the main term used to describe fans of anime, another term has been making its way through the ranks in the anime community. Hence forth the term “fujoshi!” This term typically pertains to women ranging in their early-teens to mid-to-late forties. Many of these “fujoshi” fans are correlated to the term BL (Boys Love), as I mentioned above. BL (Boys Love) has been consumed by many women since the 1970’s, but the concept of this term (and particular type of woman) gained more mainstream popularity in the early 2000’s on 2-chan (a popular messaging board website in Japan).

As my lovely friend Emma over on states:

“Since its first appearance on the Internet (within Japanese BL fan culture), fujoshi has become only one of many terms used to describe women with these interests. Despite this, it is by far the most commonly used term among BL fans and mainstream media in Japan.”

Just like the term otaku, the word fujoshi has spread far and wide in the anime community. It has even appeared outside of Japan, making its way to the western culture. Many anime series such as Watashi ga Motete Dousunda (Kiss Him, Not Me!), Ouran High School Host Club, Yuri!!! On Ice, Super Lovers, and Junjou Romantica (To name a few…because there is a shit ton more :P) have made the term “fujoshi” a main concept of their story-lines.

If you want a good laugh then I highly suggest you check out AkiDearest’s video on the term fujoshi. Hey…maybe you’re still trying to figure out if you’re a fusjoshi or not. Then you have come to the right place my sweet innocent little panda. Mama Aki will take care of you! *Clicky clicky*

The term fujoshi isn’t limited to just women though. If you are a male who likes BL (Boys Love) or anything in the yaoi community then you my friend are a “fudanshi.” Which is pretty much the male version of fujoshi.

It is estimated that 80% of all consumers of BL (Boys Love) and yaoi media is women. Which does not surprise me at all…(considering I am part of that percentile). Ain’t nothing wrong with having a little gayness in your life! Most of the viewers/readers of BL (Boys Love) and yaoi/yuri are heterosexual but straight males who view/read BL (Boys Love) are few and far between.

Hoshi-kun over at gives us a general idea on why this is:

“Because heterosexual males consume Boys’ Love and similar media a whole lot less than their female counterparts in real life, they are featured a whole lot less in anime, but given changing times, they are being centred a lot more in manga and will probably appear more in anime. Fudanshi personalities are vastly different from the stereotypical fujoshi; however, they do have a lot of the same tendencies – fudanshi can be obsessive and in pursuit of the creation of the same experiences they see in BL media in their everyday lives. In contrast to that desire, fudanshi seem to be under more pressure in a social context – they work hard to keep their “fu” a secret and therefore live under a more stifled experience, since they find it difficult to explain why they enjoy homosexual romantic media as heterosexual males.”

Whether you’re a “fujoshi” or “fudanshi,” it seems like BL (Boys Love) and the yaoi/yuri fandom will only keep on growing. I think we will start seeing more shows catering to the yaoi/yuri genre in the upcoming years. I actually wrote about the terms “yaoi” and “yuri” in another Senpai Saturday if you guys want to check that out. You can find that blog post here:

I have very high hopes for the fujoshi kingdom. I believe (us) ladies will demand more of it from anime producers/creators. You can only go up from here! I am totally down with some yuri action too. *Keeps eyeing the news about the upcoming anime Citrus* As long as the story is done right I don’t care if the characters end up with the same sex. Just make sure I am properly entertained! That’s all I ask. Nothing like a good story concept and execution.

What are some of your favorite “fujoshi” catered shows? Do you have a favorite yaoi/yuri couple? Do you think we will get more “fujoshi” and “fudanshi” centered shows in the future? Do you think the “fujoshi” fandom will continue to grow or stay the same? Let me know all of your thoughts in the comments section below! ❤

Disclaimer: All imagery and photos come from searching for them on the internet. I have no claim or right to them.

What exactly makes a leading lady in anime “waifu” material?

Is it her devilishly good looks? Is it her over the top sexual prowess? Is it because she cooks, cleans, and acts like a potential wife for the main character? or is it simply because she is the best candidate out of the slew of girls gunning for the main character’s heart?

In otaku retrospect it is a combination of all the potential questions I stated above. A “waifu” is someone that makes a certain impression on the viewer. Whether that is their personality, their actions, or their very larger than life oppai (that means boobs if you didn’t know)….”waifu” material can mean anything to anyone. Gotta love things that are open to interpretation!

Let’s go over the definition of “waifu.” I mean…this isn’t called Senpai Saturday for shits and giggles. I am here to teach you guys (my general understanding) of what otaku terms mean. Today just happens to be waifu! You guys voted via Twitter ( and I am here to give you pandas what you want. Should I take a cue from Sebastian Michaelis and say, “Yes, my lord?” Bahahaha…If only I was cool as Sebby XD

Waifu definition:

Waifu (noun). fictional character a person feels affection toward. 2. fictional character considered one’s spouse. 3. Japanese word derived from the English word ‘wife.’
synonyms: husbando, mai waifu

In uncomplicated terms “waifu” is a fictional character that a person loves. Many people approach “waifuism” casually, while other fans take this term a bit more seriously. Some people be cray cray over shit like this!

Usually comparing “waifu’s” is just something that is entertaining and temporary, while other’s take this as a more ostentatious type of relationship. Some fans even take it as far as wearing a wedding band to symbolize their marriage to their waifu. This is where we insert the word “obsessed.” I mean…I feel strongly about my waifu’s but I’m not that crazy! Lololz….or am I!? You’ll never know 😉

As Chris over at ( ) states, the word “waifu” is a more recent term in otaku culture. It isn’t as old as some of the other terms I have covered so far. Here is a little history to get you guys caught up to speed:

“Waifuism is a fairly recent development in otaku culture.  Google records the first significant appearance of the word waifu in November 2007. The oldest entry for mai waifu appears in the Urban Dictionary in April 2, 2007.  However, waifu has a longer history outside of otaku culture.

Waifu is an English loanword that appeared in the Japanese lexicon around the early 1980’s. Dynamics between husband and wife continued to change in ways that made the tradition way of referring to a woman as a wife offensive to young couples. Kanai, the word for wife that uses two Chinese characters that mean “inside the house” became objectionable for many young women. Likewise, the word for husband, shujin or danna, translate roughly to “master.”  Because these words fail to match their relationship, many couples adapted the English words husband and wife. Of course, the words changed slightly in pronunciation. Wife became waifu. Husband became hazu.

These words were slowly picked up by American anime/manga fans and were used to refer to their favorite fictional characters. The anime Azumanga Daioh is thought to be one of the anime that popularized the use of the word waifu. However, the words were in the Japanese lexicon and used by anime long before this popularization.” 


To me, a good “waifu” is someone who is strong, sexy, intelligent, a bit irrational at times, but also sweet on the inside. I am a sucker for “yandere” and “kuudere” girls in anime. Sometimes you just have to play hard to get. Which in most cases almost all girls in anime are! And or you a lucky and get thrown into a harem of anime girls

*Does best Katy Perry impression…breaks out into song and dance *

‘Cause you’re hot then you’re cold
You’re yes then you’re no
You’re in then you’re out
You’re up then you’re down…

*Ahem* I’ll stop being a weirdo now. Maybe I had too much coffee today? or not enough sleep? Yeah…it could be a number of things. I can’t keep track anymore. Send me a life raft when you find one my pandas. You could LITERALLY be saving my life right now. Ya’ll have know idea.

What does the term “waifu” mean to you? Who is your favorite “waifu” in anime/manga? Do you have more than one? or do you have a favorite “husbando?” Let me know in the comments section below! 🙂

Disclaimer: All imagery and photos come from searching for them on the internet. I have no claim or right to them.

First and foremost…sorry this wasn’t posted yesterday my pandas! I had a very busy day and I didn’t have the time to write it, but I’m glad I’m actually writing this post today instead of yesterday. I got to go to a local Pride Day Festival in my town and it was SUPER fun! Super GAY and rainbowy. My inner bisexual-self was proud! ❤

So what better way to celebrate PRIDE then to go over Yaoi/Yuri in the week’s Senpai Saturday. We’re here! We’re queer! (And no hate marches/rallies/protest are gonna stop us!) We are here to stay.

My lovely friends over at Wikipedia describe Yaoi/Yuri as the following:

Yaoiprimarily known as Boys’ Love (BL) in Japan, is a Japanese genre of fictional media focusing on romantic or sexual relationships between male characters, typically marketed for a female audience and usually created by female authors.

Yuri: also known by the wasei-eigo construction Girls’ Love is a Japanese jargon term for content and a genre involving love between women in manga, anime, and related Japanese media. Yuri focuses on the sexual orientation or the romantic orientation aspects of the relationship, or both, the latter of which sometimes being called shōjo-ai by Western fandom.”

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It seems yaoi/yuri relationships didn’t really pop up/appear in manga until the early 70’s. Then in the 90’s new terms, like Boys’ Love and Girls’ Love took over for older terms such as tanbishōnen ai and Juné in Japanese usage.

In 2003, the first manga (Yuri Shimai) was produced specifically dedicated to the Yuri audience. Its revival, Comic Yuri Hime was launched after the former was discontinued in 2004.

Yaoi is a term mostly used among female audience members. It is used in manga, anime, dating sims, novels and fan fiction works. Yaoi idealizes gay male relationships (which should be easy to guess if you have any common sense 😛 ). The Yaoi genre has spread beyond Japan, and both translated and original yaoi works are now available in many countries and languages. Yaoi isn’t just for the ladies though! Many guys enjoy these types of stories as well.


I want to quote a little information I found because I find this bit pretty damn interesting. It seems that the Yuri genre in North America (or Western culture) gets the more “sexual” side of the spectrum. That isn’t to say Yaoi doesn’t either (because it MOST certainly does), but (personally) I feel like women get “sexualized” more than men.

“In North America, yuri has initially been used to denote only the most explicit end of the spectrum, deemed primarily as a variety of hentai. Following the pattern of shōnen-ai, a term already in use in North America to describe content involving non-sexual relationships between men, Western fans coined the term shōjo-ai to describe yuri without explicit sex. In Japan, the term shōjo-ai is not used with this meaning, and instead tends to denote pedophilia (actual or perceived), with a similar meaning to the term lolicon (Lolita complex). The Western use of yuri has broadened in the 2000’s, picking up connotations from the Japanese use. American publishing companies such as ALC Publishing and Seven Seas Entertainment have also adopted the Japanese usage of the term to classify their yuri manga publications.”

Anyone have any particular thoughts on this? I would love to see other people’s opinions! You can always leave your comments down below.

Men have become more “sexualized” over the last decade or so. Women are becoming just as lustful as men. Hence, the movies Magic Mike 1 & 2 (if you don’t know what I’m talking about just Google it). Insert the Yaoi terms “seme” and “uke.” I think if you want to know more about those two terms you should just Google them as well…loloz XD. I don’t think I need to cover super sexual terms on my blog. I mean…I could but I feel like that would take away from this specific topic. I am here just to give you guys a general breakdown of specific anime/otaku terms without going too off topic.

Yaoi/Yuri isn’t just for the LGBTQAI community. Many straight people actually enjoy this genera as well! Surprise, surprise! Of course it is usually men who enjoy Yuri, while women enjoy Yaoi. Yuri is mainly aimed at men, while Yaoi is aimed at women.

Why do you ask? Because there is no distraction of the fan’s own gender, they can focus on the two girls or boys involved without having to feel “threatened” by the presence of a significant other. In laymen’s terms, if Miroku and Inuyasha are a couple, the female yaoi fan has no worries of her favorite bishounen being “taken” by another girl. They can sit back and enjoy the two studly bishies together. The same thing applies to yuri, except with the male fan focusing on the girls without the distraction of a male character.

I’ll leave you guys with some of my favorite Yaoi/Yuri anime series (some of these might have yaoi/yuri as a secondary element):

No. 6
Love Stage
Sailor Moon
Yuri!!! on Ice
Super Lovers
Kuzu no Honkai
Strawberry Panic
Junjou Romantica!
Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi
Riddle Story of Devil
Miss Kobayashi’s Dragon Maid

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Japanese suffixes…also known as Japanese honorifics. You know those lovely little terms you say after ones name. For example the nickname I was given, Aya-chan. The suffix “-chan” is a type of Japanese honorific.

Ayano-senpai is here to give you a lesson in all things prim and proper today! We will be diving into the realm of Japanese honorifics. Japanese honorifics are a proper way to address someone when you are speaking to them. These guys may seem confusing at first, but once you get the hang of them they are not difficult to learn.

So don’t be afraid my pandas! We can do it!

(P.S. I cannot speak fluent Japanese nor do I claim that I can. I know key words and phrases but that’s about it. I know it’s never too late to learn though! I am just here to bring you the information that I find and break it down so you guys can understand it in more latent terms) 😀

Lets start with the definition of honorific:

1. (in certain languages, as in Chinese or Japanese) a class of forms used to show respect, especially in direct address.
2. a title or term of respect.”

Now I am going to quote some information from so you guys can see the difference between formal and informal Japanese honorifics:

Japanese Honorific Prefixes

If you have some experience with Japanese, you may have noticed that lots of Japanese titles start with “o.” An “o” at the beginning of a Japanese title is usually an honorific prefix.

Removing the “o” makes the title more colloquial, and in some cases, rude.

For example, the word for mother, with honorifics, is oka-san. Without the prefix, it becomes ka-san, which is more like “mom” than “mother.”

Keep this in mind as you learn about Japanese honorific suffixes.

Formal Japanese Honorifics

1. – sama

The most formal honorific suffix is -sama, and it’s used for God (kami-sama) and royalty(ohime-sama).

You can also use -sama to flatter people or to be sarcastic. For instance, if you attach the suffix to the slang male term for “I” (ore) to create ore-sama, this basically means “my royal self.”

2. -san

The most common formal honorific is -san, and it translates (approximately) to Ms. and Mr..

It’s used among peers and in public settings, like offices or schools (unlike in the United States., coworkers and fellow students usually refer to each other formally). It’s also used for acquaintances.

*Note: When in doubt, use –san.

Informal Japanese Honorifics

1. –chan

This is an endearing female honorific. While it’s most commonly used for children, it’s also used fairly widely among family and friends.

All of the women in my family refer to each other as –chan, even my grandma (oba-chan).

You can also use –chan for males; one of my second cousins, Tatsumi, has always been Tat-chan instead of Tat-kun, probably because it just sounds better.

This suffix reminds me of the diminutive –chen in German; lieb means love, but liebchen, which technically means little love, actually means darling.

You can use -chan the same way, to add a sense of cuteness to names and titles.

2. -kun

This is the male equivalent of –chan; it’s used for kids and between peers and friends.

While all of the women in my family refer to each other as –chan, we don’t usually use the –kun suffix (or any suffix at all) for grown men in the family. It could be interpreted as a little too “cutesy.”

3. -bō

This suffix is more cutesy than –chan and –kun.

It’s OK to call an adult male –kun, but it’s definitely not OK to call him –bō, which is reserved for little boys. It’s a derivative of obbochama, which means something like “little lord.”

Formal Japanese Honorific Titles/Suffixes

A few Japanese honorifics can be used as stand-alone titles as well as suffixes. Think of the English prefix Doctor: you can call your doctor “Doctor”, or you can call her “Doctor Smith.”

Sensei: Used for teachers
Senpai: Used to refer to upperclassmen in school or a sports club.

Lastly we have family Japanese honorifics. These are used formally to address older family members. Most of the time they are addressed with these honorifics rather than their names. It is actually possible to address elders with these suffixes without seeming rude or improper. I will now add in a chart for you guys to see these type of titles:

Proper Honorifics

If you feel like you still need more of a lesson in Japanese honorifics you can always check out Reina-senpai’s video over on YouTube. She always makes learning things super fun! ❤

When in doubt make sure to use the suffix “-san.” It is the “go to” honorific, which can work in formal or informal Japanese. It is the best way to address someone especially if you do not know them. You can even use “-san” after a first name or last name. As Reina-senpai states in the video if you are unfamiliar with the person “-san” should ALWAYS go after the persons last name. Make sure to be respectful!

Who is your favorite “-san,” “-sama,” or “senpai?” Which Japanese honorific do you like the best? Let me know in the comments section below! Aya-chan loves hearing from you guys. 😉

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Guess what day it is?!

You guessed it! IT’S SENPAI SATURDAY! Brought to you by your favorite senpai…Ayachan!

I can’t believe we have finally made it to July. Time is going by in a rush and there is nothing we can do to stop it. We just have to continue getting old, and fat, and wrinkly….wait…why am I talking about myself again? How rude of me. *Ahem* I am sure you guys don’t want to hear about my problems. You are here to get another lesson in all things “dere.”

Today we are covering the term dandere! I feel like I am a mix of all things “dere.” There are so many prospecting terms it’s hard to decide which “dere” I am exactly. I am content with being a mix. I think we all are in most cases? I’m just guessing at this point. I have no life. Don’t make me ask for halp again!

Also I am now on Twitter! You guys should come follow me if you haven’t already. My account is You follow me and I will follow back!

“Dandere is a common Japanese character archetype that describes heroines (and occasionally heroes) who are introduced as very shy, awkward and often insecure people who barely talk. Often, they want to be sociable but are either too embarrassed or scared of getting hurt. In nearly all cases, however, they overcome this and reveal their true selves- sweet, gentle and very friendly people.” 

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A lot of the time dandere’s are often mistaken for kuudere’s. This is largely due to the cold/distant nature of the character, but the difference is dandere’s are usually just socially awkward. Dandere’s are often people who considers losing a friend as the worst pain someone can endure and something they could never get used to.

Dandere’s are considered to be the “most” heroic of the four “dere” terms, as they are “almost” never villains and hardly “ever” anti-heroes. There are some exceptions to this rule. An example would be Akame from Akame Ga Kill!  If by chance a villainous dandere does come into play, high chances are they are likely to be redeemable villains.

Gonna get some help from my friend over at for this one! Just a tad bit more information on how we get the term dandere:

“Dandere is another Japanese loanword that we use in English. Again, this word is comprised of two different Japanese words. The “dan” part comes from “danmari” meaning silent or taciturn (they don’t talk), and the “dere” comes from “deredere” meaning to become lovey dovey.”

I feel like “dandere” might be the term most people can relate to. “Kuudere” is relatable as well, but we ALL go through socially awkward moments in our lives. We can be “shy” and “timid” at times until we meet the right people to break us out of those shells. There is nothing wrong with being apprehensive, demure, or introverted. We all have different personalities and quirks. PLUS ULTRA! (I had to throw in a Boku no Hero Academia reference…OKAY?! Jeez…just leave me alone guys! This is my blog not yours!) *Sticks tongue out* What am I five?! XD

So whether you are a yandere (I would hope not because you don’t want to go to prison for murdering people), kuudere, dandere or tsundere you should EMBRACE it! I love that we are all DIFFERENT! The world would be a boring place if we were all the same archetype. It would be like that episode on Fairly OddParents where Timmy gets turned into a grey blob like everyone else and they all just look the same and it’s soooo lame! You know what I am talking about? I know you do. You love that show just as much as I do ❤

Tsukimi(This Tsukimi art can be found here:

Which “dere” category do you think you fall under? Do you guys want me to continue Senpai Saturday with other anime/otaku related terms? Let me know down in the comments section! I always get excited when you guys write me. 😀

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